Trying to Be

I know I can be difficult
But you never complain
I feel your longing bleeding out
Of your transparent brain

I’m good at filling up the time
When I don’t want to connect
Each instance seems so reasonable
And you feel you can’t object

I feel a little guilty
When I don’t compromise
But I’m not all-in like you are
I apologize

I’m not giving you enough
But still you believe it’s love
And I know I have the power
I could leave you

I would easily survive
But I fear you’d lose your drive
I don’t know how to leave this tower
Though I may grieve you
Still I’m trying to be with you

You try not to rock the boat
Cuz you don’t want to hear it
Articulations of the issue
Just might break your spirit

A conversation could fix it
Or break the camel’s spine
Best to tiptoe ’round the sore spots
And pretend that all is fine

I feel a little guilty
When I don’t compromise
But I’m not all-in like you are
I apologize

I’m not giving you enough
But still you believe it’s love
And I know I have the power
I could leave you

I would easily survive
But I fear you’d lose your drive
I don’t know how to leave this tower
Though I may grieve you
Still I’m trying to be with you

I don’t want to leave yet
I’m afraid that’s all you get
I baffle even myself
I’ve got a tricky outer shell
I want to do better
Does that count

I’m not giving you enough
But still you believe it’s love
And I know I have the power
I could leave you

I would easily survive
But I fear you’d lose your drive
I don’t know how to leave this tower
Though I may grieve you
Still I’m trying to be with you
Still I’m trying to be with you