Where does it end?

A heavy song needs heavy lyrics. I loved writing these, because it’s full of interesting rhymes. The song is on my album “Going My Way”.
Come whatever may
In colourful skies, seeing nothing but grey
Getting drawn into a huge maelstrom
Of boredom and soredom
Becoming someone I’m not
Hiding myself, don’t show what I got
Bursting in tears, there’s nothing but fears
Expecting the end of my career
Where does it end?
When all hope is gone
And my friends mean nothing to me
Where does it end?
When everything’s done
There’s no place where I wanted to be
When does it end?
Yeah, I want to give it a fuck
Dwelling in thoughts is where I am stuck
Imaginations gaining odd dynamics
In panic, God dammit!
I think I’m gonna go nuts
Sabotaging myself and losing the guts
Bursting in tears, there’s nothing but fears
I’m feeling the urge to disappear
Where does it end?
When all hope is gone
And my friends mean nothing to me
Where does it end?
When everything’s done
There’s no place where I wanted to be
When does it end?
No relation to reality
Losing faith in humanity
I fight against insanity
Nowhere to hide, I am frozen inside
I am scared, I can’t make it right
I want you to devastate
The nightmare I create
I want you can you get it straight
I’m still afraid
NO! NO! NO!
CAN’T LET GO!
Where does it end?
When all hope is gone
And my friends mean nothing to me
Where does it end?
When everything’s done
There’s no place where I wanted to be
When does it end?
©2022 Nadine de Macedo